I'M SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW

HOME OR HOUSE

Well, yes, a house is simply a shelter. it's a place you live in. but it becomes a home when...

- There are things in it that you live for, like family, spouse, etc.

-There is love that is shared within its walls.

"Lived in a house, in a marriage for 8 years but it was never 'mine', never really home. It lacked the feeling of harmony and comfort. Been in my apartment less than a year and it is homey, still working on it. There is truth in the statement that home is where the heart is."

A single person can have a home, and a married couple can have a house. I like to think a house is a home if it's where you feel safe and happy. You know like a good book and blanket on a cold day. And you can have this being single or married. It's all in what you make of it.

It is, how you express yourself within your home that makes it a home, comfortable and happy and glad to come home to "your home"...

It's what you do with a house, how you make it express, reflect, and comfort you as a person, that can make it a home.

A home makes you feel safe and comfortable, and you have a sort of attachment to it. A house you can pick up and leave and go to another one. a home stays with you though, and can be put into other houses.

A house is a house if I don't add "love" and "I" to it... It can be a home, if I make it "my home" and all that I love about it and what is in it.

When I make a home for my soul, my soul feels comfortable within my body and I am happy with who I am right now!

Then I have a chance to spread love everywhere around me, and create home out of every place where I am in and feel comfortable.

But if I am not happy with who I am,

I'm always looking for something lost,

I'm always looking for others approval to do something new,

I'm always hesitating about my decisions.

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DOCUMENTING A DAILY SIMPLE ACTION

MODEL MAKING

REAL AND UNREAL

In this short film I tried to mix the real and unreal space (model) to talk about 'scales' in my childhood memories. Now my dad is as tall as me, but back when I was child he was the tallest man in the world!

War is a part of my childhood memories, and in this video I'm using my iphone as a TV to show that although I was just a little girl, I was always somehow worried about what was happening outside of my peaceful home.

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HOW SOUND CAN PLAY WITH YOUR FEELINGS..?

BOMBING

In this video I want to show that how the outside can affect inside,

-How childhood home-as an outside- could affect my perception of home-as an inside-,

- How my childhood memory can be affected by an outside factor like war.

-How by turning the radio button you can be aware of outside and all of a sudden can be a part if it.

We will hear different layers of sound in this video from very far to very close:

Radio

Warning alarm

Footstep

Someone talking very close to you

Breathing

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HORROR

Regardless of the first video here is another theme of the video,

Applying this sound effect reminded me of the question which always begins with a big "what if....?"!

What if instead of war...

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It is in this way that we affect the space: By filing it

"It is in this way that we affect the space: By filing it. The space is empty before we enter [with our objects]. "PHILISOPHY OF THE HOME by Arthur Windermere

I believe in this sentence, I also think we as human being are playing the main role to define the spaces where we are and even where others are. How? my answer is by our BODY, our SMELL, our SOUNDS, our VOICE, our FEELINGS, ...
For me people are part of a space, even they can change my mind about staying in. I can't ignore them when it comes to talking about home.

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Here are tow artist that I'm mostly inspired with in this semester project.

"’Previous Personality’ explores my relationship to my mother as she recedes into dementia. I started photographing my mother and myself when she stopped recognising me as her daughter. The documentation lasted for three years, exploring a journey of reversal and erosion." Ellen Nolan

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Artist Louise Bourgeois with one of her sculptures, Baroque (1970), at Moma in New York. Photograph: Ted Thai/Time & Life Pictures/Getty Images

Louise Bourgeois’s Femme Maison

The figures in the series of paintings called Femme Maison seem to be half woman, half house. Their title means housewife or, literally, 'woman house'

In most of her work, Bourgeois shows the home as an essentially female place, the principal realm through which she can explore ideas about female identity. These paintings link domestic architecture with the female body, prompting questions about female experience. Are the identities of these women obscured by the domestic realm, which they in turn support and nourish?

CELL (CHOISY), 1990-93, Collection Ydessa Hendeles Art Foundation, Toronto, Photo: Marcus Leith

Much later, in the 1990s, Bourgeois made a number of life-size rooms, or ‘environments’, known as the ‘cells’. By this time she had spoken extensively about her traumatic childhood and her anger towards her tyrannical father, who made Louise’s English governess his mistress. The carved marble house at the centre of Cell (Choisy) 1990-3 is a scale model of her childhood home.

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FINAL PROJECT

After revolution in my country the government decided to close universities to change the educational system, so my mother couldn't finish her studies and stayed at home to take care of me and my brother. We had filled all of her mind so she always had something to be worried about. But even if it was not the way that she had chosen, she was perfect at it.

I can never forget the smell of my mom when she enters a space, the way that her body moves when she is happy, the shadow of her cigarette's smoke on the wall when she is disappointed, the reflection of crystal chandelier on her body when she tries to clean them specially near our new year, and the confident sound of her footstep. And again how all of these have affected me at different age levels and simply made my life.

Here is my final project called "somebody I used to know". It is a stop motion short movie showing how my mother could make a home out of a space by the time she enters.

Moving in with my boyfriend recently, now I'm somebody that I used to know and I keep comparing myself with my mom when she was somehow in my situation. But how come everything was absolutely perfect? How come she was never tired? How come she was always beautiful? How come she always smells good? How come......

As most of us know negative was the base of photography, but if you are not a photographer, you never know the difficulties of negative development. In this video some scenes has negative effect as well, by this effect I tried to show that although everything was perfect at my childhood home but there was lots of difficulties behind that perfection. Most of those burdens were on her feminine shoulders.

Red is a symbol of the feminine in my short film which has been used in the shoe, the lipstickthe and the nail polish.

Tuesday 25 October 2011